As a child, I was highly intuitive, sensing things beyond my explanation. It wasn’t until I deepened my spiritual practice that I realised some of the visions and sensations I’d experienced from a young age weren’t just my imagination, they were glimpses of something that extended beyond me. Despite expressing these instincts, they were often interpreted as my own opinions or judgements rather than intuitive insights, and over time I became more cautious about expressing them. It wasn’t until my late 30s, that I met a psychic who recognised this in me and encouraged me to face this. From there, I began learning how to work with these abilities. And so, here we are, right in the middle of this story.
Coming from a background in fashion education, I’ve always been deeply drawn to creativity, whether through art, music, writing, or poetry. I didn’t realise it back then, but this would eventually become my ‘light language’. At the same time, I was equally fascinated by mysticism and the unseen. Childhood films like Hocus Pocus and Practical Magic, and TV shows like T-Bag, Grotbags, Charmed and Sabrina felt like home to me and sparked my fascination with the esoteric.
I, in fact, ultimately wanted to be Penny Crayon. She had a magical crayon that would bring whatever she drew to life. As you read on, you’ll see in some ways I did become her. However, much like today, schools in the 90s expected you to choose subjects that led to a 'real' job, so being an artist or a witch wasn’t exactly considered a proper career which left me feeling stuck for many years. Eventually, I pursued studies in fine art and Fashion Hair and Makeup (cue Penny Crayon), which led me to move to London. Moving out of my home environment opened my eyes to life beyond what I had known, and it was during this time that my spiritual path became more activated, guiding me to where I am now. And boy, was it a ride!
The Activation…
It all started around 15 years ago, when I attended a spiritual event quite by chance.
I'd met a photographer who was putting together a spiritual magazine and was hosting a launch event for it. It included a Cacao ceremony and sound bath, two things I'd never even heard of before. This was long before spiritual gatherings became part of mainstream culture, so much so that my flatmate thought I was joining a cult!
I've always been open to trying new things and will try most things once, even if I feel awkward or uncomfortable. I wasn't quite sure what to expect, but I was curious. I quietly found a space, settled down with my yoga mat and blanket, and sipped the bitter cacao as the ceremony began.
When the sound bath started, the facilitator moved around the room, placing a sound bowl on each person's body. When it came to my turn, she placed the bowl directly on my stomach and struck it. I remember the vibration spreading across my body. It was unlike anything I'd experienced before.
As the ceremony came to an end, I became aware of a profound sense of peace. My whole body felt different. The light and sounds around me seemed so much clearer, almost as though a current of electricity was running through me. It was like I was high without being high.
I left the ceremony with a feeling I still cannot quite describe, but with a knowing that I wanted to feel like that EVERY single day for the rest of my life.
What I now know is the 'fancy science' behind it, It was here that I first experienced the power of energy healing!
I was in awe of this experience and wanted to learn more about these ceremonies. It opened up a world of healing I had never known, from crystal healing, to energy healing, shamanic journeying, and past life regression. Over the years, each experience activated and shed parts of me I wasn’t aware of, bringing me closer to the peace I felt from that first ceremonial event.
One of the most profound moments of my journey happened in Ibiza, tucked away in the hills of the north. There, I had an unexpected encounter with someone from the Yawanawá tribe of the Brazilian Amazon. At the time, I wasn’t in the best place, so this meeting felt like a gift from the spirits. Unknown to me, it was exactly the medicine I needed.
It’s a story for another time, but I’ll say this: it was here that I had the most POWERFUL awakening of my life. No herbs or plants were harmed in the process, just me swimming through what Carl Jung might call the ‘swamplands’ of my psyche. It felt like my life flashed before my eyes, forcing me to confront, quite frankly, a lifetime of societal, cultural and toxic bullsht. Sht teachers, sht men, the mean girls, toxic family members and every other person and belief system I’d been conditioned to hold. You name it, it all came up!
What followed was an ongoing journey of growth and healing. Everything shifted again when I took a Reiki course, initially for my own personal knowledge. After my attunement, I began having some unexpected experiences.
My psychic senses became heightened. I had to learn how to navigate this new awareness, and without realising it, I was being guided down another rabbit hole.
A tarot reading with a psychic encouraged me to continue on this journey, and my curiosity about self-development led me to train in Quantum Healing, Light Language, ceremonial circles and ancient self-care practices.
Self-healing played a huge part in this process. Learning about myself became a positive addiction, and I embraced every part of the journey, knowing that on the other side lay the inner peace and freedom I had been seeking since my first ceremonial experience.
As I continued with self-enquiry, I found myself drawn back to my true passions, rediscovering parts of me that I had once shut down. The more I allowed myself to pursue what I wanted, the more new opportunities began to come my way, each one connecting to who I was becoming.
Most people know me as a makeup artist, but less was known about the spiritual work I had been developing alongside it. Coming home to myself didn’t mean I had to abandon one for the other. I realised it was about how I chose to share my work, allowing both to exist together.
I began to realise that creative expression was also deeply connected to my spiritual practice, a bridge between the seen and unseen worlds. As Leo Rutherford says, ‘Creativity and imagination are the lifeblood of shamanic practice.’
I guess, in the end, I did become that artist witch … turns out, it’s a real job after all! ;)
Through my own experience, I began to understand how different practices can support personal transformation. I wanted to create a space where I could share my experience, knowledge and healing practices, making them accessible to others. I believe no one needs to suffer or navigate that journey alone. And so, Cosmic Essence was born.
Ritual is at the centre of what I practise and teach. As Starhawk says, “Any ritual is an opportunity for transformation. To do a ritual, you must be willing to be transformed in some way.”
This willingness to be transformed is what led me down this path and, ultimately, why I created Cosmic Essence.
“If you aren’t willing to be changed by the ritual, don’t do it.”
- Starhawk.
Everyone has the power to change. The question is, are you ready?
Outside the cosmos…
I am a fiery Aries rising with an airy Gemini sun to fan the flames and just to mix things up, my moon in Pisces likes to get deep and dreamy.
I usually have a book in every corner of my home and often have several reads on the go! When I'm not reading, I’m writing. When I’m not writing, I’m sticking paint on scraps of images, turning them into what I call art! And when I’m not sticking paint on paper, you’ll usually find me sticking it on people’s faces!
Over the years, my curiosity has taken me into new areas of healing and self-discovery, including hypnotherapy and ancient practices. I love learning, exploring and discovering new ways to deepen my Cosmic work.
